A strong felt misses

They are leaving... tonite. A trip to Taiwan for a 2 1/2 weeks training. Overseas training was what i hoped for ever since i was in Army. No matter how people described the training are going to be, tedious, its still what i hoped for. How many times in life can you go overseas? Not for pleasure, but for training? Climbing up a 70 degrees elevated mountain to hit an objective, sweating out together, shag out together. Puffing a single stick of cigerette with a group of bonded people. I miss the days where we were out in the jungle... I really miss them.

I still remember the days of the field camps we went. Its deep inside me. The days were over, since a long time ago.

My papers are getting nearer... 2 weeks leave isn't enough. I'm tired. Worn out. Physically and mentally. I'm not pushing myself hard enough. I'm lethargic somehow. But i still gotta do it. I went so far, I gave up the Taiwan trip for it. I must push myself harder. I'll try...

Just hoping for the handful of inconsiderate people, not to play me out within this short period of time. Don't take MC please! I don't want to be called back to camp for being a guard reserve. I need you people's help. I need time desperately. Lets just hope...